a valiant creature

after a week of trying every last effort and agonizing over whether or not it is the right thing to do, we finally put down Mirage...again- heart punch. i kept Drifter occupied, promising him another companion mare...he knew his mate was not well, he wasnt able to prod her into any early morning romps, and graciously did not cleanup all the senior feed she could not....boy cat knew too, he slept in our barn instead of in his lot...i couldnt watch her go down, and i couldnt look at her covered frame awaiting pickup. damn i wish we could have buried her, here, where her salvation from starvation and alone-ness lived...boy cat waited in the lot too, Drifters calls grew rough and dusky...Tuffy is my hero in these times. we have determined it is my job to help him ease the end images from his mind rather than he consoling me nightmare after nightmare....he said she made nary a whimper. as humans we own the responsibility to care for- to the end- our valiant creatures. we loved you Mirage.